hmm... i never got to keep that m-4. stupid jury trial made me miss qualifications
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the Father shut one door for me and kept another open. i once had a Bible teacher who told me that thinking of God's providence in our lives as "open doors and windows" was a degrading and/or bad way to think. i dont see how it changes anything. i'm glad for the opportunities none-the-less.

i've been growing more comfortable in the gym lately. working out with a buddy inspires me to work harder. and occassionaly when someone else comes in i feel the need to show off and work even harder. i'm finally seeing results. i'm finally pushing more weight. i've got some goals in mind: to look like King Leonidas from 300. to pushpress and bench my body weight. also i'd like to weigh 185. therefore i'm trying to gain weight.

another endeavor i'm on is to complete the "love dare" as seen in "fireproof". and it will be done without my wife knowing about it. (dont worry, she doesnt read this blog as far as i know - and not that i'm hiding it from her).

i'm very unsatisfied with our government and their decisions as of late. hopefully within 15 years i'll have a nice home in the middle of no where south america. at least those governments will admit that they are socialists.

my goal is to arrest one person before i get off at midnight.